Monday, April 25, 2011

April 25,2011

I am so frustrated!  I started cleaning out my old files, found some artwork to share and have moved my usb cable, so the photos are stuck in my camera.  Oh man, it is frustrating to try to figure what to do next.  I guess I concentrate on clearing, photos can be downloaded later. 

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Removing the clutter

I realize as I start trying to get back to my art that my life and my studio are all filled with clutter.  I have spent the week clearing out odd bits and shuffling through unfinished projects.  Some doomed to the trash while others are lined up to finish. 

I just spent the last hour clearing out old picture files and organizing the files on my email too. 

Saturday, April 16, 2011

When I was diagnosed as possibly having Cancer, I was devastated.  I did not have insurance, it became a burden both physically and financially.  Now after a year of being declared free of the cancer, the tumor having been surgically removed, I am still dealing with the financial fall out.  It is however the emotional toll that has really hit me.

My husband gave me a button while I was recovering, "Celebrate the JOY."  I realized I had gotten angry with the world.  I got angry with the simple things, my car broke down (it was 14 years old, it was due) my vacuum quit picking up dog hair, all the little daily things made me angry.  I had to work two jobs to pay the bills and get health insurance. I was always tired and grumpy.

Then it struck me, looking at my life, I had forgot to see the joy, to celebrate living,  I decided to cut back, I quit one of my jobs and to find ways to get back to art.  I had gotten so into surviving the cancer, I had let it make me stop living.

I decided to go to my favorite art store, Sam Flax.  The people are always full of great ideas, new products and creative stimulation.  I came across an old issue of Artful Blogger.  Now as I work to find my creative voice again, I can also share with others who have fought these same issues.